昨天，他拒绝了她。
　　一直以来，她以为他总会在她的身后跟随，不论她什么时候需要他。因为他说过，他会等她一辈子的。可是，他食言了。
　　她和他是大学时候的同学。她16岁上大学，比他小两岁。在学校里，她总是小妹妹，和很多男生关系都很好。当然，和他特别要好
　　她确实是没有想过男女之情的，可能是因为她还小。直到那一天，他突然面红耳赤地递给她一张电影票，期期艾艾地说，这是一部爱情片。真是老土，老土得可爱。不过她还是直截了当地拒绝他了。她说他不是她喜欢的类型，不会选择他的，但是他没有退却。
　　接下来的时间里，他无时不刻地出现在她身边，关心她，呵护她，什么事情，在她要做之前他已经抢先帮她做了。可是她告诉他，他不是她喜欢的类型，不要再继续下去了。他说，他会一直等下去，直到她同意的那一天。
　　大学毕业后，他们俩都被保送本校的研究生，不在同一个专业。研究生期间的所有实验难题，基本上都是他一手包办了，连她的导师都和他的导师开玩笑：我那个师女婿呢？最近怎么没有看见他了？
　　5年的研究生一下子过去了，她也到了 25岁的年纪。也确实考虑过选择他的。但是终究没有开口。为什么呢……可能还是觉得有些不完美。他总是一副邋里邋遢的样子，头发乱乱的，不修边幅。还有就是太瘦，虽然在南方人中不算太矮，却还不到一百斤，她还是比较喜欢运动型的男孩子。她直接了当地跟他说过她不选择他的原因，一向健谈的他沉默了好久。那时她倒是希望他能够听了这句话离开，但是他接着说：“我是对你最好的，这辈子都是。”
　　博士毕业后，她留校当老师，他选择了出国。当时同学们给他送行，她没有伤感，反而有一种如释重负的感觉。那个在她身边围绕了7年的人终于走了，她不用再喋喋不休地说，“我不喜欢你这个类型，你放弃吧”这样的话了。
　　很快她交了一个男朋友，他比她大6岁，家境很好，在他父亲的公司上班，当了一个财务经理，一个月可以收入过万，房子车子都有了。
　　可是交往深入下去，她就发现了差距。她说的话，他总是嗯嗯嗯的，半懂不懂。她的意思，他总是不能理解。这段感情断断续续维持了一年半，终于还是分手了。这时候，她才记起那个总是微笑地站在她身后，什么事情都不用她操心的他来。
　　从小她都是优等生，考上的也是最好的大学之一。本科时是直博生保送，博士时是优秀博士毕业。所以她觉得身边的人都应该是这样子的，不用她费神地表达，可是她错了。
　　苦闷中她迎来了她的28岁生日。28岁的女人似乎就给人另类的感觉了，虽然照镜子她没有什么自卑和苍老的感觉，但是父母亲和朋友们都开始为她着急了。于是她开始了一轮一轮地相亲。
　　那些相亲的对象，要么有钱而粗俗，要么木讷而迟钝，还有就是唯唯诺诺不知所云。一个一个，都只让她更加想起天边的那个他来。那个睿智、懒散、关切、幽默、善辩的他。
　　在她副教授评审述职会上，突然她发现了他。坐在台下，眼睛还是那么明亮，人也还是那么瘦。头发看起来还是脏脏的，拿着一支笔，坐在前排微笑着看着她。唯一的变化，似乎就是苍老了一点，不再像那个没事就要和人家滔滔不绝争辩的年轻人了。
　　原来他已经被学校作为人才引进回来了，不在她们系，但是是一个学院。她还在报副教授的时候，学校已经答应给他正教授的职位了。所以他有资格享受了一套不大不小的福利房，在这个寸土寸金的城市，已经算是不错了。
　　他装修房子的时候她经常去他家给他参谋，似乎又回到了四年前的日子，他给她端水，削水果，给她回答工作中的种种问题。
　　那一天，他房子装修完了，邀她去吃饭。只有他们两个人，晚上的灯光很美。她知道他要说什么，有点期待，又有点紧张。果然他说，房子有了，缺一个新娘。
　　她装作没有听懂，其实她是希望他继续四年前那样的直白，直截了当地说：这辈子我会让你知道我是对你最好的。但是他没有。他只是喟了一口气，什么也没有说。
　　送她下楼的时候，他竟然握了握她的手，很紧很紧的，握得她有些生疼。幸好他很快就放开了。然后招呼也没有打就走回去了。
　　以后的日子就忽然尴尬起来，他碰见她也只是淡淡的，点个头打个招呼。校车上也不和她坐一起。等车时也不和她说话。她的硕士生答辩时请他来当委员，他也推脱了。
　　终于她看见他和别的女孩子在一起，说说笑笑的，她心里确实酸酸的，莫名其妙的还有些愤怒。她最好的朋友劝她说，他大三开始追她，她就算倒过去追他一回又有什么？都要快三十岁的人了。
　　可是，当她鼓起平生最大的勇气和他说的时候，他居然面不改色地说，“我已经有女朋友了！”
　　她也听说过他交女朋友了，但是怎么可能这么快呢？从她十九岁到现在，这么多年的感情，难道他一下子忘记了吗？他不是说过等她一辈子的吗？
　　昨天晚上她哭了一晚上。这么多年来她从没有这么哭过。难道男人真的这么容易转移感情吗？真的吗？
我之所以把这篇文章放在这是想提醒自己也提醒看过此文章的人：珍惜身边的人，尊重别人的感情。每个人都有自己的另一半，别因为他（她）有缺点而冷落她（他）因为他（她）爱你才让自己的缺点暴露在你面前，因为他（她）想爱是可以承载一切的，别让他（她）等的太久，当心死了，所有的一切也都结束了！珍惜你爱的人。

巫婆说这是一篇魔力日志，看完此日志请在5分钟之内转载到自己空间，一个月内你将和你喜欢的人永远走在一起。
看到不转载，男的成光棍。穷一辈子。。女的寡妇~傻一辈子！
很灵验的哦！







请耐心一点将这个很短的故事看完……


一个朋友说，追她很久的那个男孩今天结婚了。
我说，你想怎么样呢？人家喜欢了你那么久都无动于衷……
她说，去参加了婚礼。新娘很漂亮，新郎也很帅。好像第一次觉得他也蛮有魅力的，怎么当初就没发觉呢？
她说，原本觉得自己从来没有爱上他，
但在新娘新郎交换戒指的那一刻，她的心狠狠疼了一下。
她说，最难过的，不是你爱的人不爱你，而是爱你很多年的那个人，转身离去。

当看见那个说爱你一辈子，等你一辈子的人，给另外一个女孩子的无名指带上戒指的时候，你能听到自己心碎的声音。

今天的主角不是你，不管她是不是灰姑娘，今天的公主都不是你。

他在全封闭训练的时候，为了能给她打电话，他都要走很远很远的路，去公用电话亭。
冬天飘着雪，很冷。
她却还不耐烦的说，干嘛没事总给我打电话？
她不知道他在那边已经冻的不行了。
他只是想听听她的声音。
现在，她想起这些来，脸上还是会洋溢着幸福的微笑。
然后定过神来，看着眼前这对新人……
新郎依旧是他，但是他的甜言蜜语海誓山盟，却再也不是为她所说。

有多少人一辈子承诺爱一个人又付诸行动了呢？
当努力了好多年依然没有结果的时候，谁还会一直等你呢？
终于明白，我们都能勇敢的面对——你爱的人不爱你，
但是，谁都无力面对—— 一个爱你很久很久的人转身离去。
那种骄傲，那种幸福，荡然无存。

请珍惜身边默默爱你的人。
用心呵护和把握每一份真爱。

不要对那些真诚付出的爱意熟视无睹，
不要等突然意识到失去时才后悔莫及。

或许，当他有一天真的离开了，
你会发现，
真正离不开彼此的，
是你，
不是他……

几米说: 当你喜欢我的时候，
我不喜欢你,当你爱上我的时候，我喜欢上你,
当你离开我的时候，我却爱上你,
是你走得太快，还是我跟不上你的脚步,
我们错过了诺亚方舟,错过了泰坦尼克号,
错过了一切的惊险与不惊险,我们还要继续错过……
但是，请允许我说这样自私的话，
多年后，
你若未娶，
我还未嫁，
那，
我们能不能在一起？？

counting down...=.=

haizzzz.....leaving m'sia soon.....17th of september.....farewell still haven't decide when yet....will quickly sort it out soon....and decide who to invite......of course i will invite my gang over....my big bro kz......wei sian....thx to u two for treading my blog....lol....u two are on the list ya....must come....dunno why SS-ing now....haha....i will sort out a list....mayb i will only invite 10-20 friends.....dun wanna invite too many....to avoid aeroplanes flying over my head....if u get wat i mean....lol....now juz have to confirm who will b back on raya time and i will invite them....yeap....sherilynn is definitely on the list....haha....i sms-ed her...haha...i takes a man's guts to do it u noe....haha....btw....she promised that she would come....i fell somewhat happy though....feeling a bit of emo recently coz i am leaving to a totally unknown country....cultural shock is expected....luckily no jet lag.....ok...after i've hit land in india...i'll have to study hard.....classes will be held 6 days a week....8 to 5.....there wil be a day for lab....dissections.....haiz....study till i drop lor....so...to whoever frequently reads my blog.....once again i thank you for reading it...although i understand that sometimes i do write nonsense.....i hope that i had successfully let u understand me more.....i will write as often as i could......okla....till then

tired...angry!!

ok....just came back from kl this afternoon and watched a few episodes of grey's anatomy...not to mention house series....one of the episodes from grey's really hit hard on my mind...it goes that there is this girl who likes a guy from the beginning and she practically did everything she can for him....help him to prepare for his examinations.....care for him.....always be with him no matter what happens... and this guy just don't know...and still treat her only as a good friend...until one day this guy is choosing an intern and u know what?? she got left out....OMG that really shocked me......and the girl juz said: screw you......can't you see what i've done for you, u idiot??after all that i've done and u don't even bother and now u dumped me??U SON OF A BITCH!!!oh and that was the best part....and seriously that is a mirror image of what happened to me.....EXCEPT THAT IN MY CASE THE ONE WHO DOES EVERYTHING IS ME.....i still remember what my frens said after she gave me "THE PRESENT"......'is that what u got in return for what u did for the last four years??'...lolzzz....pissed off man.....i wish that i have the guts to do that.....too bad i ain't that voracious....i mean...yeah i am trying to be MR GOOD or more likely MR YES MAN but everything has its limit...even i myself too, have a limit....if u can be angry so why can't i?? i have a million of reasons to be angry with u......if u think u're so brilliant and good looking and even have a lot of admirers...GO BLOW URSELF!!!......i can be VERY VERY good to everyone but u must know when to draw a line.....i mean i seriously tolerated a lot of shit from u.....and i don't mind that because you were special to me........but now u as a HUMAN shall have a little sense of shyness....not to pretend that u are innocent and push all the shit onto me by dumping me??.....I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THIS SHIT!!!!....TAKING EVERYTHING FOR GRANTED!!!!.......u guys(good frens of mine) know who i REALLY AM and i think u guys know exactly WHAT I AM CAPABLE OF....if i am REALLY pissed...no more MR NICEGUY and u will KNOW WHAT EXACTLY IS HELL!!!!.......sorry if u guys feel a bit offended..but seriously emo-ing now....pissed!!

tired...but satisfied

ok.....finally passed my exams..which means that farewelll is on too....lol...my big bro kok zhang said that have it on raya.....hmmm.....considering....coz raya is near my expected departure date...well...nvm...i wil confirm my departure date first and then only i will set the date of my farewell party......haiz....can't celebrate my b'day with my frens....sad....um...i think i have to invite her....no choice coz if i were to invite almost half of the class i must then call her too....who can give me suggestion on what should i do ??coz if i dun invite her then people will say bad things..coz it's so obvious that i leave her out on purpose....but if i invite her....i don't have the guts to face her....haiz...i dunno what to do.....tml have to go kl....do my NOL....see first la....i think more than 80% i will invite her on my own....lolzz....even i deleted her hp number, i still remember it clearly until now....0166339698....also i found her house in ozana by chance...>.<...btw...now still enjoying my holiday..but some of my frens who are in f6 have exams on the 16th....i think my farewell party will mostly be after the 16th....coz i'll have to prepare all the things...haiz have to pack again...INDIA....I AM COMING....muahaha....z.z

hu...i am soooo relieved...

haha......finally the exam is over.....and i am in m'cca now...enjoying my i month plus holiday before going to india....lol....a bit boring i can say but its far more better than living in my hostel which is like hellhole......yucks.....preparing things to go singapore with my family....after that i will be gone for good...lol....to india...five years extension programme....i will invite my friends over for the farewell party....ohh...i miss my friends...i am very scared that i will cry....cos i am weak....i admit that....i haven't decide the date and time...i will post it on fb when all is settled....so...till then

feeling tranquil and a sense of serenity

it's one week away from the final exams......wasting time preparing.......revisions.....tutorials....tips(or rather guidelines)........yeah...trying my very best to ace in the finals...feeling a sense of oneness and calm....maybe its just a moment of peace before a storm or more relevant, a war...haha....needless to mention that everybody is getting all heat up for the world cup it seems.....but i am not interested in football......so anything that happens is none of my business....lol.....come to think of it....i have been in kl for seven months......i am among the earliest who came to kl on my own in early january.....and also the earliest to graduate from my college....haha....some of my friends just started their foundation programme but i finished mine...so after i finished my sem 2 exam....i am going back to m'cca to pack my things up and off to India....but before that i will make sure that i make full use of the time to accompany my parents...they matter the most to me.....maybe we will tavel to the land of the merlion.......after that i will organize a farewell party and invite my friends to come over to my house and we will say our goodbyes....that will be seriously touching....i will invite her over...if u know who i mean....yeah...she's sherilynn....gosh first time i mention her name on my blog.....haha.....invitation to my bro isaac is confirmed....he is the best friend that i have ever had......and oh a few of my classmates......yeah.....i will call them over.....by the way...i think i won't be feeling that lonely because one of my friend jane will be there....that makes me feel good because at least i have a friend there....we can help each other out.....haha.....well...i will be in India for full five years and that's for sure coz i joined the extension programme offered by manipal university......still...i miss all my friends.....ok...change of subject.....i...am still single and available...have not added her on facebook.....nothing has changed except that i don't think that much as i was before......which is a good sign...i feel natural talking to everyone nowadays....no hard feelings....more jokes and more fun.....yeah.....that is the way it should be.....and that is what i have achieved during my stay in kl.....to me...she is still the same...waiting for her to change...well some may say that its not worth waiting for a knife to stab my heart once again and guess what??i agree with that hands down.....why the wait...??she won't come back for me....its useless.....haha....i think the only way to let go is to find a new relationship....oh that's what they said.....get a new one and you'll forget the old.......haha...T.T.........feeling tired now.....everyday waking up at 6 just to study....slp at 2-3 am in the morning....can't wait to finish the exams....i am still on the right track.....and who knows....maybe i will get a girlfriend in uni.....that will be awesome...haha...this is just me talking....k...that's all for now....time to get some sleep....till then.....hasta la vista.....

sketches again

college life has become more and more boring and mundane lately......poor management and lousy lecturers are giving me hell......gosh not to mention that although the semester exam is just round the corner, but can u imagine some of my lecturers can't manage to finish the syllabus in time....lolzz...ya this problem is very common nowadays......especially for us who are staying in this so called information era......exam's coming in 5 weeks time and still the syllabus is not complete yet....and u noe wat?? the lecturer is blaming us for not cooperating with her to finish it......and so extra classes rise to the scene....hoping to race against time.....so that the lecturer have enough time to 'relax'...plus every month there will be a new lecturer teaching us..u can imagine how bad the situation is......hmph....what a bunch of bullshit.....anyways....from last week onwards i have to stay backfor some study group thingie until late evening and time is running out.....every day i can feel that my body is crying for 'salvation' haha......to be frank this is very tiring.....and stressfull.....but luckily i can STILL manage to cope up with the progress......though it is very frustrating sometimes......luckily my bio lecturer is very kind and helpful....she is the best lecturer in the whole college.....her name's jamie kok mei lin......same hometown as me in malacca.......ok....lets change the subject.....romance......oh gosh....again???haiz i just can't let this thing to be silent can i??kk.......finally knew the REAL reason why........she thinks that i thinked too much about her...on the bad side........i mean....this is normal for a person who loves someone to think much right??it is obvious that if u fall in love with somebody with your heart......u will always think of her and whatever she does meant a lot to you......unfortunately she don't understand this...and her gestures and emotions and also the way she talk to me gives me the negative message.....for what i noe is she doesn't have the slightest feeling towards me and all the while i've been a clown or a puppet......(yeah i think that is the best word to describe the situation)...she says that i didn't add her in facebook but come on....how am i going to face her again?? i seriously didn't have the GUTS to do that man....yeah she may have a lot of bfs but how she treats them i don't know and i wouldn't wanna know....haha....some more she keeps her grudge about what i think of the present that she gave me......a mannequin.......a wooden puppet some sort of thing......she said that since i love anime.....MAYBE i will take up DRAWING anime characters.....ARRGH!!!that is a point to prove that it is a lame excuse!!!come on.....u know me for 5 years and that i don't like drawing!!i would prefer her to give me a small present like a key chain or something that has a clear symbol or message.....but not this......oh man.....it hurts......some more my classmates and even my parents think that the mannequin symbolises 'dumb puppet' and created a good joke out of it.....they insulted me by saying"after 4 years u care for her....this is what u get in the end??" oh shit man......my heart broke to pieces......she keeps complaining about these two matters but i can tell u that the time that i have wasted just to talk to her and help her get along with everything.....mainly studies.....and my concern towards her....haizzz.....i don't know man.....yeah she doesn't have any feelings towards me but she should know that from the start.....not by saying that everything i did is what a friend should do......do u know this is kinda hurt??haha....maybe when she got dumped by her lover through the same way only then she will know huh??and that will b too late...my other friends continue pursuing their studies at their own pace and as for me....i will b leaving for India this september....or maybe end of august....thought of having a farewell party......see how first....klah....tired already.....i will stop here....this is what i am gonna say for now....nothing more...nothing less.....till then.....nitezzzz

sketch

lol...nothing special....final exam's in july.......now 'enjoying' my one week holiday.....companion?? books....i mean college textbooks......haiz....have to study lor.....in order to accomplish my dream to become a well-known doctor.....have been thinking a lot lately regarding the last post that i wrote....feeling hopeless in romance......haiz...better dun think too much on that....have to focus now...one day she will noe my feelings..true feelings towards her.....i believe in that.....haha..why?? why i always have to think of her even though she rejected me with such ease and erm... how to put it?? no mercy? haha i think so....lol....juz writing what i am feeling at this moment...hope u all dun mind.....haha....tomorrow got driving lesson some more......at melaka now....all my frens are either in f6 or matriculation or even colleges but seems that only me and my best fren isaac are available at this moment....i mean....we can go out together at any time of the day....haha....usually at this hour of the day.....that is around 10 to 12 at night...... when i am alone in my room.....i will think about a lot of things...'great thinker' huh?? haha....kk...have to continue thinking and reminiscing....and oh ya....i have another best fren oso....his name's shem.....we studied in the same college and we are room mates...we joke around a lot....same as when i'm with isaac....both of them are gud at making fun of others including me.....i like that....and every time they will like shoot out one joke and we would laugh and laugh like crazy....haha......i felt no pressure making friends with them.....and i seriously cherish the time we spent together....his hometown is in johor bahru....have to go visit him sometime in the future.......i love both of them....of course i mean our frenship......haha.....they really light up my life.......thank you isaac and shem.....both of u guys mean a lot to me.......take care lor......till then

reminiscence of my feelings towards a girl that i like the most

she rejected me last year after i liked her secretly for 4 years.....and it really hurts.....according to her point of view....she says that after she rejected me.....she felt that i hate her.....i dislikes her........that statement is only partially true. the truth is my heart had been torn apart at that moment and until now, i still don't have the courage to face her.....我过不了我自己那一关，and the most ridiculous thing is....i still have feelings towards her......how stupid and pathetic i am...haha......i should have know that she doesn't have the feelings towards me since the day i started to like her...and yet i am doing whatever i can to help her...just to let her know that she is not alone and i really cares about her and i really like her.....reason why i like her??well if u ask me that question i really can't give a proper answer......but one thing i wanna say is......she is the one that keeps telling me to pass up my homework when i we were in form 1.....that time i was just a lazy bug....because of her.....i was able to have the resolve to turn over a new leaf......it is also about that time when i realized that i like her.....haiz.....talking this don't know for what........what's done is done.....sincerely hope that she stays happy and wishing her all the best in her future undertakings......good luck......(i will stop here, till the next sketch)

saying hi again and a brief talk bout the future

lol.....saying hi to my blog page again after a month for not logging in to my page....quite free and relaxed recently coz there is still ample of time(actually quite some time)b4 my semester 2 examinations. About the university thingie...finally decided to go to India....house of bollywood.....haha....the place, culture, and food there may not suitable for me but it doesn't bother me much coz i wanna burn out my excessive fats...haha.....to be handsome....as for romance and affection...it seems that most of my schoolmates back in secondary school and even my college mates have fell into the river of love...whereas i am one of a few standing by at the banks of the river waiting for the one and my only one....why????........nvm......the time will come where i will find my true love...haha...cos as the saying goes...what's yours is yours.....okie....until next time...

exams

lolzzz......first sem results not that good....have to resit 2 subjects which is chemistry and mathematics....haha expected maths because my maths is not that gud....not to mention oso that i hardly practice my maths oso...>.<.....college life's quite fun, just that i am a bit confused now coz choosing which university to enter is the current issue at hand....mayb i will go for india or taiwan......coz heard that india is quite famous for its medicine studies....lolzzz have to discuss with my parents first....meanwhile i seriously nid a girlfriend though.....haha....finding one now....will update my status......

choosing universities

lol.....now my college life's coming to an end....have to go to university d.....either russia or taiwan....heard that russia is a scary place due to the bombs and racism and the culture there...parents oso discourage me to go russia because of safety reason....taiwan despite of frequent earthquakes, it is better than russia coz language is not a problem there....and i heard taiwan have a lot of hot girls.....>.<....now juz have to confirm whether the language used for lecture is in english or chinese......will update it later

first timer

umm.....this is the first time i create a blog.....i am keith and i am 18 this year....currently studying in kl....to be frank actually i am quite serious looking haha....but actually if u really noe me well then u will noe what it means by 'dun judge a book by its cover'...>.<......i will randomly post my stories and some life experiences...so hope anyone out there who see my blog won't get offended cos its all my personal opinion and encounters...thx^^